Wednesday, January 27, 2010

One Word Wednesday.....



YUMMMMMMMM!

Love to All,

midRae

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

My Thoughts.



One year ago today we said goodbye to my big brother, Roy. 

He battled cancer for 5 years, along with no kidneys.  He was born with only one kidney and the one he had was found to have a tumor the size of a soccor ball on it.  He fought such a brave battle, and when the drugs became to hard for him to bear and cut his quality life into something he did not like, he turned his battle over to God.  God granted him an additional 3 years and we are so very thankful for the time that was given to us. 

He left behind his most precious wife Char, his son Willie, and his two daughters, Josie and Lily.  We are blessed with time still spent with his family and my heart and prayers go out to them and I ask God to give me the strength that they, my brothers family, seems to show the world.  I also pray that God will give my parents the comfort and strength that they may need, my mom has found this to be very hard.

My big brother taught me, in the final years of his life, that God is in control and that I needed to always remember that.  He showed me what faith is really about and how much a person could really love their Heavenly Father.  He always called me and the first thing that he would say to me was, 'Hey Sis.'  I can still hear his voice and I am so very thankful for that.  My big brother was a precious gift that I did not fully appreciate until God choose to make me sit up and notice. 

I love and miss you Roy.

Love to All,

midRae

Friday, January 22, 2010

Big News, Really Big News!

About 2 months ago I did this post with a little teaser about some big news in our lives.  And guess what?  I am ready to share.  But I have to tell a little story, it has some wonderful stuff and some really sad stuff but just hang with me and you will understand why I needed to tell the whole story.


Two months ago on Thursday, November 12th, my son Dayton and his girlfriend, Shannel, came to midMan and me and told us, 'We're going to have a baby, due July 14th.'  Thrill coursed through my soul and I was so excited.  Then reality set in.  Dayton did not have a job, he had lost it two month ago, but he was ready to sign up for the military.  What to do?  The kids, I shouldn't call them kids,  they are both over 18 and their own persons, had gone through quite a few emotions when finding out about the pregnancy and trying to figure out the next steps for them and their life together.  We let them know that we would support them in any decision and that we loved them.  And we couldn't wait to help.  Such a wonderful blessing, things would have a way of working out, they always do.  And with all of us working together, things would be just fine.


So then, on Monday, November 16th, 4 day later, my oldest son Dion and his wife, Ada, called me at work to tell me that they were also going to have a baby, due July 24th.  They had only gone into the doctor to find out why they weren't pregnant yet and found out that they were.  What thrill and amazement!!  Two babies!  I have gone over and over in my mind what I would do with a grandbaby.  Oh, I wanted one so bad.  I am so baby hungry!  All you girls know exactly what I am talking about.  And now two grandbabies.  Heavenly Father had blessed our family with so much joy.  What wonder!  Dion and Ada were a little concerned about finances, they are both full time college students, but they do have some saving so the stress isn't quite as bad as it could be.


Thanksgiving came and went and such fun and great family time was had by all.  I loved that my three boys, and the ones most important to them, were able to be with us and spend such a wonderful day.


About a week after Thanksgiving, Dayton came up to my room and told me that Shannel was spotting.  My heart dropped, I have been through this twice myself, and I wanted to cry.  They went to the Emergency Room and were told that Shannel needed to go home and rest and go see her normal doctor the next day.  After a very long week, and so much pain and worry, sadly Shannel lost the baby.  Our hearts were broken.  I wanted to wrap Shannel in my arms and just take all of the sadness and pain away.  It hurts so much.  And to make matters harder for Shannel and Dayton, Dion and Ada were still expecting.


Shannel is still dealing with her grief.  We are there for her when ever a hug is needed or she just needs someone to talk to.  But time is what is needed the most.   For those of you who have ever experienced losing a baby, you will understand.  It's hard.  And it just seems like all that you see is babies or expecting parents every where.  It is so hard.  And when you lose a baby early in pregnancy men just don't go through what women go through.  It is so very hard.  I will always remember this baby, my first grandchild, each July with a smile and warm feeling in my heart. 


After Shannel lost her baby, Ada was terrified.  She was so afraid she would lose her little blessing, also.  Much worry and tears were had by Ada.  But I am happy to report that things are going great.  They moved Ada's due date to July 28th, and life is wonderful.  Just look!  It's a baby!  With little feet and little hands.    




I will share more in the future as I find out more.  I don't know if they will be finding out the gender of the baby or not, but either way I am still thrilled.  They are thinking it's a boy.  Who knows? 

Isn't it amazing?  I am so ready to go out and buy stuff, but sanity does prevail and I am impatiently waiting.  midMan is not to sure about being a Grandpa.  He thinks he's too young.  But I am seeing more and more gray in the beard and hair, almost enough to catch up to me.  I think he's ready, he just hasn't figured that out yet.  And tailEnd is thrilled at the tought of being and Uncle, and no longer the baby of our little family.  I know I am so ready.  You can all call me Granny now.  I won't be mad.  I'll have a little smile each time I hear it.

Love to All,

midRae

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Three Views



VIEW #1:  The Original



VIEW #2:  Sepia



VIEW #3:  Color Punch

I personally like View #3, the color just fits in my mind, but as we know most minds are not like mine, remember, I've got a weird one.  What do you all think?  Leave me a comment, I love constructive criticism, at least most of the time.  Let me know which one is your favorite and also see if you can find the little surprise in the tree.

Love to All,

midRae