midThoughts

I think I shall make this a weekly little post and just let you all know the thoughts running through, around, and up and down in my head.  Not that you would be interested or even care but sometimes I just need to write it down to clear a little room up there in the nether regions of my head.  I need to make room for all of the new stuff coming in.  Ouch, it really sucks getting old.


The month of April has gone by like a whirly wind and has lefts us all wondering, 'Is spring real or has it always been an illusive dream of warmth and sunshine after a dark, cold and dreary winter?'  And what was up with this weekend, snow, hail, and more snow.  Come on it's May.  Spring, spring, please we need spring and we do not want to just jump right into summer.  A little transition time from cold to hot would be greatly appreciated.

(snow on blossoms, beautiful blue sky, snow and hail on the ground)

This past month I have had a lot going on, probably not really but it sure felt like a lot.  It seems that every weekend we had to do something, be somewhere, or take care of something else.  The whining midRae shall appear.........now!  What ever happened to mmmmmeeeeeeee timmmmme?  I want it nooowwww!!


Oh wow, she's gone.  Man that was fast, good thing she left, I have been working on the pity party's and banishing them from my life forever.  Not quite there yet.  But someday.........I promise you all, there is always hope.  Say it with me..........Pity Party Gone!  Pity Party Gone!  Pity Party Gone!  Now just keep repeating that until it becomes.....Pip Pat Goo!  Pip Pat Goo!  Pip Pat Goo!  Now exactly why am I saying Pip Pat Goo?  HUH!!??


Moving on.


This past weekend was Graduation for my daughter-in-law, Ada.  What an amazing girl.  English is her 3rd language and she still manages to pull out a 4.0 GPA across the board.  Amazing!!  She has such an amazing work and study ethic and will always do her best to be the best in what she has chosen to do with her life.  She finished her Bachelors Degree in December of last year but decided to walk in the Commencement Exercises this weekend with her friends.

She will be finishing her Master's Degree this December and both Ada and my son will be graduating in the Spring of 2011, him with his Bachelors.  It is nice to see such drive.  Along the way this year they will bless us with our first Grandson this July.  We are so excited and I still find it amazing how much they do each and every day.  They have a lot on their plates but always manage to enjoy life and make great friends and memories.

(check out the old lady with the grey hair......SCARY)

It was a crazy busy weekend. 

Sunday we took midMan's brother and his wife on a tour of our fair little city to get them familiar with what the area is like.  midMan's brother has started working for the same employer, and they are actually working together today on the same route.  Let's hope midMan show's Jeff the right way to do the job along with some tricks to make the job easier.  Jeff's first week out on the truck was pretty hard especially the day the guy that was supposed to train him slept in.  Picture this:  It's 4:30am and Jeff is at the yard waiting for the other guy.  No guy.  Call midMan.  Get 2nd boss's number.  Call 2nd boss, get voice mail.  Call midMan.  Get 1st boss's number.  Call 1st boss.  1st boss calls guy.  Guy shows up at least 2 hours late, he slept in.  Not a great start to the day.  AAAHHHHHHHH!!!  So far this week has gone much better.  Let's hope it stays that way.

So I want to leave you all with a preview of the next month.  This weekend plant the garden and see if the boys remember its Mothers Day.  Next week & weekend, send tailEnd to Lagoon for a day, prepare for baby shower and have baby shower on Saturday.  The next week looks free so far, workouts here I come, and we'll see what happens.  Gotta squeeze those workouts in every chance I get.  The next week is my niece's Graduation and then it's on to a three day weekend, maybe camping.  YES!!  I can not wait to sleep in.  Let's hope midMan doesn't decide to get me up at 3:30am for a French Vanilla Coffee, no French Vanilla on the mountain.  I keep telling him I don't want any but he still makes me get up.  Whoops, I am hearing a little bit of noise from Whiny midRae.  Hurry kick her so she goes away.  hehehehehe  Hurt her bad, we do not like Whiny midRae.

I'll give you all an update as to how this month goes.  I am sure it will rock and I will have a blast all month long.  I really do dislike being bored.  Oh, and middleSon should be moving forward with a partnership in business this month.  Cool for him!!  I know he can do this.

I shall keep you posted.

Love to All,

midRae

My Stream of Thoughts This Morning.

They are placing my big brothers headstone as I type this.  I have never been part of something like this and I am not sure how to handle it.  Yes, we have had other deaths in our family but when it came to Grandparents headstones they were already in place by the time that I was old enough to understand or comprehend. 

Should I leave work and be there while they place it, or should I just wait until after?  My mind and my heart are so unsure at this point.  I want to visit his grave, but I almost want to do it alone.  Yes, I have visited a few times since he died, but never alone and never to cry.  I seem to have a really hard time crying in front of others, I always have to be the strong one.  I miss him. 

My big brother, Roy, was such a contrast in who he was throughout his life.  But in the end he was so close to God and managed to teach me so much about love, faith and dignity.  How I wish I could look into his eyes and tell him how much I appreciated him, how much I miss him, and how wonderful his girls are.  They help their mom so much, more than most kids will ever have too.  He would be so proud.

I am so very thankful for our last phone conversation and will always hear him say, "Hey Sis.", forever in my mind and heart.  I will never forget his voice or his one armed hugs, just thinking about the hugs makes me smile.  I really miss my big brother. 

My heart is breaking as I think of all of the time that we missed.  Thank you Roy for teaching me that God is in control and that God will always know.  Faith!!  He taught me what a gift faith can be.

I miss you.

midRae